Essential Bukowski: Poetry
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Essential Bukowski: Poetry
Abel Debritto
Charles Bukowski
‘The best poet in America’ Jean Genet‘He brought everybody down to earth, even the angels’ Leonard CohenThe definitive collection from a writer whose transgressive legacy and raw, funny, acutely observant writing has left an enduring markHere is Bukowski eating walnuts and scratching his back, rolling a cigarette while listening to Brahms, showering with Linda in the mid-afternoon.Here is Bukowski knowing that the secret is beyond him, that people who never go crazy live truly horrible lives, that there’s a bluebird in his heart that wants to get out.Here is Bukowski at his most hilarious and heart-breaking, his most raw and profound; here is Bukowski at his best.
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CONTENTS
Cover (#u1d8d7f6a-231d-553c-9848-61d3565ca740)
Title Page (#u1bf851d6-c3cf-5318-ac45-4bb4b4cc2a96)
Copyright (#ue8c28262-d87d-5955-82d6-8006fa004b78)
Introduction (#uaeff3ef9-1fc6-55f2-b48a-9c3392c4bb95)
friendly advice to a lot of young men, and a lot of old men, too (#u9e159778-bc4b-53aa-aec1-e4bff8575427)
as the sparrow (#ulink_f65f45db-a039-51b6-87d2-b4e4aa715766)
layover (#ulink_3f291e67-6d46-55f7-87f6-5151c725574f)
the life of Borodin (#ulink_796e6c3a-6eef-54d9-81f6-a6b0f89ce2e0)
when Hugo Wolf went mad (#ulink_a6145996-c0ac-5a52-839b-faf4fd3e26cd)
destroying beauty (#ulink_0261f684-436c-595f-886e-8c07ff442cc0)
the day I kicked a bankroll out the window (#ulink_28134f0c-2ff5-533c-b0b7-853326e05ec0)
the twins (#ulink_b5ce355e-e692-592b-9ffe-64ccd1c2b1e5)
to the whore who took my poems (#ulink_cc01b2fa-0331-5153-be19-44ea4478db97)
the loser (#ulink_04d2e233-b98a-5ff8-9ba8-e98fead8a9b7)
the best way to get famous is to run away (#ulink_5637087b-99ee-585a-a14f-3391bf85f602)
the tragedy of the leaves (#ulink_1eb4917f-8caa-560c-a4c9-d1c7609d92dd)
old man, dead in a room (#ulink_4578a6b5-379d-5b30-8a82-23ba036de1a9)
the priest and the matador (#ulink_a51f72cb-2ea3-5b64-b4d3-16cb78e2a334)
the state of world affairs from a 3rd floor window (#ulink_0db89134-422f-5605-b98c-b48d7ebea381)
the swan (#ulink_6ffd7e27-a14e-5534-ba16-6c289bca9742)
beans with garlic (#ulink_94946bb1-23b0-575d-8e84-26e5ec11c429)
a poem is a city (#ulink_2090ca06-5018-5c87-9210-192c69db740e)
consummation of grief (#ulink_24127079-875f-5263-8bb4-de680efb820a)
for Jane: with all the love I had, which was not enough (#ulink_5f3a1ef0-4427-5719-a6c4-5dc584cd086b)
for Jane (#ulink_8b6972a9-efeb-51a2-961b-edae8a7029a0)
john dillinger and le chasseur maudit (#ulink_e8c7d02f-32ee-5757-a9d0-da5ad3c27d9c)
crucifix in a deathhand (#litres_trial_promo)
something for the touts, the nuns, the grocery clerks and you . . . (#litres_trial_promo)
no. 6 (#litres_trial_promo)
and the moon and the stars and the world: (#litres_trial_promo)
true story (#litres_trial_promo)
the genius of the crowd (#litres_trial_promo)
I met a genius (#litres_trial_promo)
swastika star buttoned to my ass (#litres_trial_promo)
the blackbirds are rough today (#litres_trial_promo)
If we take— (#litres_trial_promo)
another academy (#litres_trial_promo)
the poetry reading (#litres_trial_promo)
the last days of the suicide kid (#litres_trial_promo)
the shower (#litres_trial_promo)
the mockingbird (#litres_trial_promo)
style (#litres_trial_promo)
girl in a miniskirt reading the Bible outside my window (#litres_trial_promo)
the shoelace (#litres_trial_promo)
those sons of bitches (#litres_trial_promo)
hot (#litres_trial_promo)
trouble with Spain (#litres_trial_promo)
a radio with guts (#litres_trial_promo)
some people never go crazy (#litres_trial_promo)
the fisherman (#litres_trial_promo)
the trash men (#litres_trial_promo)
face of a political candidate on a street billboard (#litres_trial_promo)
the proud thin dying (#litres_trial_promo)
an almost made up poem (#litres_trial_promo)
a love poem for all the women I have known (#litres_trial_promo)
art (#litres_trial_promo)
what they want (#litres_trial_promo)
one for the shoeshine man (#litres_trial_promo)
the meek have inherited (#litres_trial_promo)
who in the hell is Tom Jones? (#litres_trial_promo)
and a horse with greenblue eyes walks on the sun (#litres_trial_promo)
an acceptance slip (#litres_trial_promo)
the end of a short affair (#litres_trial_promo)
I made a mistake (#litres_trial_promo)
$$$$$$ (#litres_trial_promo)
metamorphosis (#litres_trial_promo)
we’ve got to communicate (#litres_trial_promo)
the secret of my endurance (#litres_trial_promo)
Carson McCullers (#litres_trial_promo)
sparks (#litres_trial_promo)
the history of a tough motherfucker (#litres_trial_promo)
oh, yes (#litres_trial_promo)
retirement (#litres_trial_promo)
luck (#litres_trial_promo)
cornered (#litres_trial_promo)
how is your heart? (#litres_trial_promo)
the burning of the dream (#litres_trial_promo)
hell is a lonely place (#litres_trial_promo)
the strongest of the strange (#litres_trial_promo)
8 count (#litres_trial_promo)
we ain’t got no money, honey, but we got rain (#litres_trial_promo)
flophouse (#litres_trial_promo)
the soldier, his wife and the bum (#litres_trial_promo)
no leaders (#litres_trial_promo)
Dinosauria, we (#litres_trial_promo)
nirvana (#litres_trial_promo)
the bluebird (#litres_trial_promo)
the secret (#litres_trial_promo)
fan letter (#litres_trial_promo)
to lean back into it (#litres_trial_promo)
the condition book (#litres_trial_promo)
a new war (#litres_trial_promo)
the laughing heart (#litres_trial_promo)
roll the dice (#litres_trial_promo)
so now? (#litres_trial_promo)
the crunch (#litres_trial_promo)
Sources (#litres_trial_promo)
Acknowledgments (#litres_trial_promo)
About the Authors (#litres_trial_promo)
Also by Charles Bukowski (#litres_trial_promo)
About the Publisher (#litres_trial_promo)
INTRODUCTION (#ulink_c5a7be43-80fb-5638-a4f9-f29ba013cd33)
With more than twenty Charles Bukowski poetry books now available in print and dozens of first-rate unpublished poems on file, an essential collection has been long overdue. The task at hand was titanic: A prolific author by any measure, with some five thousand poems on record written over a span of fifty years, Bukowski famously wrote almost every night in an alcoholic stupor, trashing most of the gibberish the morning after. Picking Bukowski’s best poems out of this massive heap was daunting, to say the least.
“The bluebird,” “the genius of the crowd,” “roll the dice,” “the crunch,” and other popular poems were strong contenders even before I put together a tentative list. As I pored over both the published and the unpublished work, some relatively obscure gems, such as “when Hugo Wolf went mad,” “sparks,” “the loser,” and “another academy” came back to life for me. I also included poems that were pivotal in Bukowski’s career, like “swastika star buttoned to my ass,” which moved longtime German translator, agent, and friend Carl Weissner to become a fervent Bukowski enthusiast after reading it in a small press magazine in England in 1966. There were one hundred and seventy poems in my final selection for the book, which then had to be cut down to only ninety-two—“democracy,” “they, all of them, know,” “the word,” and other top-notch poems had to be discarded.
These ninety-two essential poems barely represent two percent of Bukowski’s mammoth output, but his poetic evolution is hard to miss in this chronological collection. The early poems, with their lyricism and occasional surreal imagery, give way in the 1970s to Bukowski’s “Dirty Old Man” macho persona, when he finally achieves success in his fifties, after which he takes, in his final years, a more philosophical stance on life. Through it all, what remains the same is Bukowski’s brilliance at capturing things as they are, his crystal-clear snapshots of his immediate experiences as well as the world at large, which he hardly ever photoshopped after the fact.
It is precisely this genuineness, along with the timeless quality of Bukowski’s most accomplished poems, that makes us embrace his poetry with open arms: the day-to-day but crucial trivialities found in “the shoelace”; the sensuality of “the shower”; the forces of life at work in “the mockingbird” and “the history of a tough motherfucker”; the elusive nature of art in many of the poems; the self-deprecating humor in “we’ve got to communicate”; the imperfection that makes us almost perfect in “one for the shoeshine man”; and the heartfelt portraits of the artists that Bukowski looks up to.
There’s also the striking, disarming simplicity of “art” and “nirvana”; the Hemingwayesque spare lines of “Carson McCullers” and “hell is a lonely place”; the hymns to individualism and willpower of “no leaders” and “the genius of the crowd”; the never-take-things-for-granted spirit of “I met a genius”; the long narrative poems that read as well-paced short-stories; and the life-affirming drive of “the laughing heart” and “the crunch.” These last two poems show that, despite the darkness that often entered his life and poetry, Bukowski always saw the light at the end of the tunnel, and we can’t help but identify with that feeling.
These poems are Bukowski at his most captivating: unvarnished, witty, and passionate, showing us all “the way” as he listens to classical music on “a radio with guts” and drinks “the blood of the gods” in his small Los Angeles apartments and studios. The Buddha of San Pedro, Bukowski ultimately smiles because he knows the secret of it all is way beyond him, and that’s the beauty of it: Bukowski distills life to its very essence, squeezing the magic out of the ordinary with his unmistakable, surpassing simplicity.
Essential, indeed.
friendly advice to a lot of young men, and a lot of old men, too (#ulink_60ae5aad-e44f-5a0d-a428-56f0e4d0fc25)
Go to Tibet.
Ride a camel.
Read the Bible.
Paint your shoes blue.
Grow a beard.
Circle the world in a paper canoe.
Subscribe to the Saturday Evening Post. Chew on the left side of your mouth only. Marry a woman with one leg and shave with a straight razor. And carve your name in her anus.
Brush your teeth with gasoline.
Sleep all day and climb trees at night.
Be a monk and drink buckshot and beer.
Hold your head under water and play the violin.
Do a belly dance before pink candles.
Kill your dog.
Run for mayor.
Live in a barrel.
Break your head with a hatchet.
Plant tulips in the rain.
But don’t write any more poetry.
as the sparrow (#ulink_5921a671-187d-54e0-add9-f3223c934fde)
To give life you must take life,
and as our grief falls flat and hollow
upon the billion-blooded sea
I pass upon serious inward-breaking shoals rimmed
with white-legged, white-bellied rotting creatures
lengthily dead and rioting against surrounding scenes.
Dear child, I only did to you what the sparrow
did to you; I am old when it is fashionable to be
young; I cry when it is fashionable to laugh.
I hated you when it would have taken less courage
to love.
layover (#ulink_d02765df-b6cd-53cd-a795-9588940133ca)
Making love in the sun, in the morning sun
in a hotel room
above the alley
where poor men poke for bottles;
making love in the sun
making love by a carpet redder than our blood,
making love while the boys sell headlines
and Cadillacs,
making love by a photograph of Paris
and an open pack of Chesterfields,
making love while other men—poor
fools—
work.
That moment—to this . . .
may be years in the way they measure,
but it’s only one sentence back in my mind—
there are so many days
when living stops and pulls up and sits
and waits like a train on the rails.
I pass the hotel at 8
and at 5; there are cats in the alleys
and bottles and bums,
and I look up at the window and think,
I no longer know where you are, and I walk on and wonder where the living goes when it stops.
the life of Borodin (#ulink_1aa45ddb-2444-5d92-950c-3d5694ad4122)
the next time you listen to Borodin
remember he was just a chemist
who wrote music to relax;
his house was jammed with people:
students, artists, drunkards, bums,
and he never knew how to say “no.”
the next time you listen to Borodin
remember his wife used his compositions
to line the cat boxes with
or to cover jars of sour milk;
she had asthma and insomnia
and fed him soft-boiled eggs
and when he wanted to cover his head
to hide out the sounds of the house
she only allowed him to use the sheet;
besides there was usually somebody
in his bed
(they slept separately when they slept
at all)
and since all the chairs
were usually taken
he often slept on the stairway
wrapped in an old shawl;
she told him when to cut his nails,
not to sing or whistle
or put too much lemon in his tea
or press it with a spoon;
Symphony #2 in B MinorPrince IgorIn the Steppes of Central Asia he could sleep only by putting a piece of dark cloth over his eyes; in 1887 he attended a dance at the Medical Academy dressed in a merrymaking national costume; at last, he seemed exceptionally gay and when he fell to the floor, they thought he was clowning.
the next time you listen to Borodin,
remember . . .
when Hugo Wolf went mad (#ulink_c16343cc-29ea-501c-8e3a-0b5075812fb0)
Hugo Wolf went mad while eating an onion
and writing his 253rd song; it was rainy
April and the worms came out of the ground
humming Tannh?user, and he spilled his milk
with his ink, and his blood fell out to the walls
and he howled and he roared and he screamed, and
down-
stairs his landlady said, I knew it, that rotten son of a bitch has dummied up his brain, he’s jacked-off his last piece of music and now I’ll never get the rent, and someday he’ll be famous and they’ll bury him in the rain, but right now I wish he’d shut up that god damned screaming—for my money he’s a silly pansy jackass and when they move him out of here, I hope they move in a good solid fisherman or a hangman or a seller of biblical tracts.
destroying beauty (#ulink_091a00b8-0010-5f05-8e1f-fbf670ab48dd)
a rose
red sunlight;
I take it apart
in the garage
like a puzzle:
the petals are as greasy
as old bacon
and fall
like the maidens of the world
backs to floor
and I look up
at the old calendar
hung from a nail
and touch
my wrinkled face
and smile
because
the secret
is beyond me.
the day I kicked a bankroll out the window (#ulink_91c1a6a4-c171-5725-a7ae-06d772411d04)
and, I said, you can take your rich aunts and uncles
and grandfathers and fathers
and all their lousy oil
and their seven lakes
and their wild turkey
and buffalo
and the whole state of Texas,
meaning, your crow-blasts
and your Saturday night boardwalks,
and your 2-bit
library
and your crooked councilmen
and your pansy artists—
you can take all these
and your weekly newspaper
and your famous tornadoes
and your filthy floods
and all your yowling cats
and your subscription to Life, and shove them, baby, shove them.
I can handle a pick and ax again (I think)
and I can pick up
25 bucks for a 4-rounder (maybe);
sure, I’m 38
but a little dye can pinch the gray
out of my hair;
and I can still write a poem (sometimes),
don’t forget that, and even if they don’t pay off, it’s better than waiting for death and oil, and shooting wild turkey, and waiting for the world to begin.
all right, bum, she said,
get out.
what? I said.
get out. you’ve thrown your
last tantrum.
I’m tired of your damned tantrums:
you’re always acting like a
character in an O’Neill play.
but I’m different, baby,
I can’t help
it.
you’re different, all right!
God, how different!
don’t slam
the door
when you leave.
but, baby, I love your money!
you never once said
you loved me!
what do you want
a liar or a
lover?
you’re neither! out, bum,
out!
. . . but baby!
go back to O’Neill!
I went to the door,
softly closed it and walked away,
thinking: all they want
is a wooden Indian
to say yes and no
and stand over the fire and
not raise too much hell;
but you’re getting to be
an old man, kiddo:
next time play it closer
to the
vest.
the twins (#ulink_0b630cfc-bb3a-5ab6-b125-391adc03ea62)
he hinted at times that I was a bastard and I told him to listen
to Brahms, and I told him to learn to paint and drink and not be
dominated by women and dollars
but he screamed at me, For Christ’s sake remember your mother,
remember your country,
you’ll kill us all! . . .
I move through my father’s house (on which he owed $8,000 after 20
years on the same job) and look at his dead shoes
the way his feet curled the leather, as if he was angrily planting roses,
and he was, and I look at his dead cigarette, his last cigarette
and the last bed he slept in that night, and I feel I should remake it
but I can’t, for a father is always your master even when he’s gone;
I guess these things have happened time and again but I can’t help
thinking
to die on a kitchen floor at 7 o’clock in the morning
while other people are frying eggs
is not so rough
unless it happens to you.
I go outside and pick an orange and peel back the bright skin;
things are still living: the grass is growing quite well,
the sun sends down its rays circled by a Russian satellite,
a dog barks senselessly somewhere, the neighbors peek behind blinds.
I am a stranger here, and have been (I suppose) somewhat the rogue,
and I have no doubt he painted me quite well (the old boy and I
fought like mountain lions) and they say he left it all to some woman
in Duarte but I don’t give a damn—she can have it: he was my old
man
and he died.
inside, I try on a light blue suit
much better than anything I have ever worn
and I flap the arms like a scarecrow in the wind
but it’s no good:
I can’t keep him alive
no matter how much we hated each other.
we looked exactly alike, we could have been twins
the old man and I: that’s what they
said. he had his bulbs on the screen
ready for planting
while I was lying with a whore from 3rd Street.
very well. grant us this moment: standing before a mirror
in my dead father’s suit
waiting also
to die.
to the whore who took my poems (#ulink_e289318a-d338-5c0c-97df-382f7427823e)
some say we should keep personal remorse from the
poem,
stay abstract, and there is some reason in this,
but jezus:
12 poems gone and I don’t keep carbons and you have
my
paintings too, my best ones; it’s stifling:
are you trying to crush me out like the rest of them?
why didn’t you take my money? they usually do
from the sleeping drunken pants sick in the corner.
next time take my left arm or a fifty
but not my poems:
I’m not Shakespeare
but sometimes simply
there won’t be any more, abstract or otherwise;
there’ll always be money and whores and drunkards
down to the last bomb,
but as God said,
crossing his legs,
I see where I have made plenty of poets
but not so very much
poetry.
the loser (#ulink_727c1a29-0911-5b23-ad2f-58cf06013c16)
and the next I remembered I’m on a table,
everybody’s gone: the head of bravery
under light, scowling, flailing me down . . .
and then some toad stood there, smoking a cigar:
“Kid, you’re no fighter,” he told me,
and I got up and knocked him over a chair;
it was like a scene in a movie, and
he stayed there on his big rump and said
over and over: “Jesus, Jesus, whatsamatta wit
you?” and I got up and dressed,
the tape still on my hands, and when I got home
I tore the tape off my hands and
wrote my first poem,
and I’ve been fighting
ever since.
the best way to get famous is to run away (#ulink_07d6f08c-4d65-5f08-82a8-62bb2bfd4c99)
I found a loose cement slab outside the ice-cream store,
tossed it aside and began to dig; the earth was
soft and full of worms and soon I was in to my
waist, size 36;
a crowd gathered but stepped back before my shots
of mud,
and by the time the police came, I was in below
my head,
frightening gophers, eels and finding bits of golden
inlaid skull,
and they asked me, are you looking for oil, treasure,
gold, the end of China? are you looking for love, God,
a lost key chain? and little girls dripping ice-cream
peered into my darkness, and a psychiatrist came
and a
college professor and a movie actress in a bikini, and
a Russian spy and a French spy and an English spy,
and a drama critic and a bill collector and an old
girlfriend, and they all asked me, what are you
looking
for? and soon it began to rain . . . atomic submarines
changed course, Tuesday Weld hid behind a newspaper,
Jean-Paul Sartre rolled in his sleep, and my hole
filled
with water; I came out black as Africa, shooting
stars
and epitaphs, my pockets full of lovely worms,
and they took me to their jail and gave me a shower
and a nice cell, rent-free, and even now the people
are picketing in my cause, and I have signed
contracts to appear on the stage and television,
to write a guest column for the local paper and
write a book and endorse some products, I have
enough money to last me several years at the best
hotels, but as soon as I get out of here, I’m gonna
find me another loose slab and begin to dig, dig,
dig, and this time I’m not coming back . . . rain, shine,
or bikini, and the reporters keep asking, why did you
do it? but I just light my cigarette and smile . . .
the tragedy of the leaves (#ulink_b1582e28-deec-5b18-bfb0-0f3481afb7f2)
I awakened to dryness and the ferns were dead,
the potted plants yellow as corn;
my woman was gone
and the empty bottles like bled corpses
surrounded me with their uselessness;
the sun was still good, though,
and my landlady’s note cracked in fine and
undemanding yellowness; what was needed now
was a good comedian, ancient style, a jester
with jokes upon absurd pain; pain is absurd
because it exists, nothing more;
I shaved carefully with an old razor
the man who had once been young and
said to have genius; but
that’s the tragedy of the leaves,
the dead ferns, the dead plants;
and I walked into a dark hall
where the landlady stood
execrating and final,
sending me to hell,
waving her fat, sweaty arms
and screaming
screaming for rent
because the world had failed us
both.
old man, dead in a room (#ulink_72ceda9f-e3e0-5eb1-aff0-c497dc75c04e)
this thing upon me is not death
but it’s as real,
and as landlords full of maggots
pound for rent
I eat walnuts in the sheath
of my privacy
and listen for more important
drummers;
it’s as real, it’s as real
as the broken-boned sparrow
cat-mouthed to utter
more than mere
and miserable argument;
between my toes I stare
at clouds, at seas of gaunt
sepulcher . . .
and scratch my back
and form a vowel
as all my lovely women
(wives and lovers)
break like engines
into some steam of sorrow
to be blown into eclipse;
bone is bone
but this thing upon me
as I tear the window shades
and walk caged rugs,
this thing upon me
like a flower and a feast,
believe me
is not death and is not
glory
and like Quixote’s windmills
makes a foe
turned by the heavens
against one man;
. . . this thing upon me,
great god,
this thing upon me
crawling like a snake,
terrifying my love of commonness,
some call Art
some call poetry;
it’s not death
but dying will solve its power
and as my gray hands
drop a last desperate pen
in some cheap room
they will find me there
and never know
my name
my meaning
nor the treasure
of my escape.
the priest and the matador (#ulink_5229c552-76e4-5bc5-9527-733bcfb4a8bc)
in the slow Mexican air I watched the bull die
and they cut off his ear, and his great head held
no more terror than a rock.
driving back the next day we stopped at the Mission
and watched the golden red and blue flowers pulling
like tigers in the wind.
set this to metric: the bull, and the fort of Christ:
the matador on his knees, the dead bull his baby;
and the priest staring from the window
like a caged bear.
you may argue in the marketplace and pull at your
doubts with silken strings: I will only tell you
this: I have lived in both their temples,
believing all and nothing—perhaps, now, they will
die in mine.
the state of world affairs from a 3rd floor window (#ulink_a61df8c7-04d1-516e-b0d8-d12df195f59d)
I am watching a girl dressed in a
light green sweater, blue shorts, long black stockings;
there is a necklace of some sort
but her breasts are small, poor thing,
and she watches her nails
as her dirty white dog sniffs the grass
in erratic circles;
a pigeon is there too, circling,
half dead with a tick of a brain
and I am upstairs in my underwear,
3 day beard, pouring a beer and waiting
for something literary or symphonic to happen;
but they keep circling, circling, and a thin old man
in his last winter rolls by pushed by a girl
in a Catholic school dress;
somewhere there are the Alps, and ships
are now crossing the sea;
there are piles and piles of H- and A-bombs,
enough to blow up fifty worlds and Mars thrown in,
but they keep circling,
the girl shifts buttocks,
and the Hollywood Hills stand there, stand there
full of drunks and insane people and
much kissing in automobiles,
but it’s no good: che sar?, sar?: her dirty white dog simply will not shit, and with a last look at her nails she, with much whirling of buttocks walks to her downstairs court trailed by her constipated dog (simply not worried), leaving me looking at a most unsymphonic pigeon. well, from the looks of things, relax: the bombs will never go off.
the swan (#ulink_ffeef042-e639-55ee-9b5f-23e6630176c0)
swans die in the spring too
and there it floated
dead on a Sunday
sideways
circling in current
and I walked to the rotunda
and overhead
gods in chariots
dogs, women
circled,
and death
ran down my throat
like a mouse,
and I heard the people coming
with their picnic bags
and laughter,
and I felt guilty
for the swan
as if death
were a thing of shame
and like a fool
I walked away
and left them
my beautiful swan.
beans with garlic (#ulink_8092f54a-476f-58d0-b6c6-a8f8f399ffc8)
this is important enough:
to get your feelings down,
it is better than shaving
or cooking beans with garlic.
it is the little we can do
this small bravery of knowledge
and there is of course
madness and terror too
in knowing
that some part of you
wound up like a clock
can never be wound again
once it stops.
but now
there’s a ticking under your shirt
and you whirl the beans with a spoon,
one love dead, one love departed
another love . . .
ah! as many loves as beans
yes, count them now
sad, sad
your feelings boiling over flame,
get this down.
a poem is a city (#ulink_97afd76e-d614-5145-9260-54ba7270348b)
a poem is a city filled with streets and sewers
filled with saints, heroes, beggars, madmen,
filled with banality and booze,
filled with rain and thunder and periods of
drought, a poem is a city at war,
a poem is a city asking a clock why,
a poem is a city burning,
a poem is a city under guns
its barbershops filled with cynical drunks,
a poem is a city where God rides naked
through the streets like Lady Godiva,
where dogs bark at night, and chase away
the flag; a poem is a city of poets,
most of them quite similar
and envious and bitter . . .
a poem is this city now,
50 miles from nowhere,
9:09 in the morning,
the taste of liquor and cigarettes,
no police, no lovers walking the streets,
this poem, this city, closing its doors,
barricaded, almost empty,
mournful without tears, aging without pity,
the hardrock mountains,
the ocean like a lavender flame,
a moon destitute of greatness,
a small music from broken windows . . .
a poem is a city, a poem is a nation,
a poem is the world . . .
and now I stick this under glass
for the gaunt mad editor’s scrutiny,
and night is elsewhere
and faint gray ladies stand in line,
dog follows dog to estuary,
the trumpets bring on gallows
as small men rant at things
they cannot do.
consummation of grief (#ulink_25b071fb-235a-50a1-a64b-fcc52786f033)
I even hear the mountains
the way they laugh
up and down their blue sides
and down in the water
the fish cry
and all the water
is their tears.
I listen to the water
on nights I drink away
and the sadness becomes so great
I hear it in my clock
it becomes knobs upon my dresser
it becomes paper on the floor
it becomes a shoehorn
a laundry ticket
it becomes
cigarette smoke
climbing a chapel of dark vines . . .
it matters little
very little love is not so bad
or very little life
what counts
is waiting on walls
I was born for this
I was born to hustle roses down the avenues of the dead.
for Jane: with all the love I had, which was not enough (#ulink_c5855056-177a-53fa-9fe9-54fec1e56229)
I pick up the skirt,
I pick up the sparkling beads
in black,
this thing that moved once
around flesh,
and I call God a liar,
I say anything that moved
like that
or knew
my name
could never die
in the common verity of dying,
and I pick
up her lovely
dress,
all her loveliness gone,
and I speak
to all the gods,
Jewish gods, Christ-gods,
chips of blinking things,
idols, pills, bread,
fathoms, risks,
knowledgeable surrender,
rats in the gravy of 2 gone quite mad
without a chance,
hummingbird knowledge, hummingbird chance,
I lean upon this,
I lean on all of this
and I know:
her dress upon my arm:
but
they will not
give her back to me.
for Jane (#ulink_9d204e78-fe9c-5dea-a5c0-29c5e54fe74b)
225 days under grass
and you know more than I.
they have long taken your blood,
you are a dry stick in a basket.
is this how it works?
in this room
the hours of love
still make shadows.
when you left
you took almost
everything.
I kneel in the nights
before tigers
that will not let me be.
what you were
will not happen again.
the tigers have found me
and I do not care.
john dillinger and le chasseur maudit (#ulink_04b07df9-3867-59f9-b524-d615d59b555b)
it’s unfortunate, and simply not the style, but I don’t care:
girls remind me of hair in the sink, girls remind me of intestines
and bladders and excretory movements; it’s unfortunate also that
ice-cream bells, babies, engine-valves, plagiostomes, palm trees,
footsteps in the hall . . . all excite me with the cold calmness
of the gravestone; nowhere, perhaps, is there sanctuary except
in hearing that there were other desperate men:
Dillinger, Rimbaud, Villon, Babyface Nelson, Seneca, Van Gogh,
or desperate women: lady wrestlers, nurses, waitresses, whores
poetesses . . . although,
I do suppose the breaking out of ice-cubes is important
or a mouse nosing an empty beercan—
two hollow emptinesses looking into each other,
or the nightsea stuck with soiled ships
that enter the chary web of your brain with their lights,
with their salty lights
that touch you and leave you
for the more solid love of some India;
or driving great distances without reason
sleep-drugged through open windows that
tear and flap your shirt like a frightened bird,
and always the stoplights, always red,
nightfire and defeat, defeat . . .
scorpions, scraps, fardels:
x-jobs, x-wives, x-faces, x-lives,
Beethoven in his grave as dead as a beet;
red wheel-barrows, yes, perhaps,
or a letter from Hell signed by the devil
or two good boys beating the guts out of each other
in some cheap stadium full of screaming smoke,
but mostly, I don’t care, sitting here
with a mouthful of rotten teeth,
sitting here reading Herrick and Spenser and
Marvell and Hopkins and Bronte (Emily, today);
and listening to the Dvorak Midday Witch or Franck’s Le Chasseur Maudit, actually I don’t care, and it’s unfortunate: I have been getting letters from a young poet (very young, it seems) telling me that some day I will most surely be recognized as one of the world’s great poets. Poet! a malversation: today I walked in the sun and streets of this city: seeing nothing, learning nothing, being nothing, and coming back to my room I passed an old woman who smiled a horrible smile; she was already dead, and everywhere I remembered wires: telephone wires, electric wires, wires for electric faces trapped like goldfish in the glass and smiling, and the birds were gone, none of the birds wanted wire or the smiling of wire and I closed my door (at last) but through the windows it was the same: a horn honked, somebody laughed, a toilet flushed, and oddly then I thought of all the horses with numbers that have gone by in the screaming, gone by like Socrates, gone by like Lorca, like Chatterton . . . I’d rather imagine our death will not matter too much except as a matter of disposal, a problem, like dumping the garbage, and although I have saved the young poet’s letters, I do not believe them but like at the diseased palm trees and the end of the sun, I sometimes look.
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