Ruthless Russian, Lost Innocence

Ruthless Russian, Lost Innocence Chantelle Shaw The virgin?s awakeningViolinist Ella Stafford isn?t used to parties, so it?s little wonder she?s overwhelmed by brooding Russian Vadim Aleksandrov! The throbbing, raw attraction takes fragile English beauty Ella out of her depth? ?and into his arms! Soon she finds herself sharing his Mediterranean villa, attending glamorous parties and showered with luxuries.Ella should feel elated. Yet there is darkness in Vadim?s past that even Ella?s virginal sweetness cannot penetrate. But will the baby she?s carrying force him to learn to love? ?I think it would be better if we kept last night as a one-off. I don?t want to have an affair with you?? Ella faltered, flushing when Vadim?s piercing blue gaze settled thoughtfully on her face. She had the unnerving feeling that he could read the jumble of emotions whirling around her head. ?Neither of us wants to be tied down in a relationship,? she reminded him, despising herself for the way her heart-rate quickened when he dropped down onto the bed and wound a few strands of her hair around his fingers. ?I agree,? he said coolly. ?But surely the very fact that we have no desire for a relationship makes us ideal candidates for an affair? There?s nothing to stop us being lovers. And besides,? he murmured, his voice dropping to a deep, sensual tone that caressed her senses, ?one night was not enough for either of us?was it, Ella?? Chantelle Shaw lives on the Kent coast, five minutes from the sea, and does much of her thinking about the characters in her books while walking on the beach. She?s been an avid reader from an early age. Her schoolfriends used to hide their books when she visited?but Chantelle would retreat into her own world, and still writes stories in her head all the time. Chantelle has been blissfully married to her own tall, dark and very patient hero for over twenty years, and has six children. She began to read Mills & Boon? as a teenager, and throughout the years of being a stay-at-home mum to her brood found romantic fiction helped her to stay sane! She enjoys reading and writing about strong-willed, feisty women, and even stronger willed sexy heroes. Chantelle is at her happiest when writing. She is particularly inspired while cooking dinner, which unfortunately results in a lot of culinary disasters! She also loves gardening, walking, and eating chocolate (followed by more walking!). Catch up with Chantelle?s latest news on her website: www.chantelleshaw.com Ruthless Russian, Lost Innocence by Chantelle Shaw MILLS & BOON www.millsandboon.co.uk (http://www.millsandboon.co.uk) CHAPTER ONE The Louvre Auditorium?Paris IT HAPPENED in an instant. A fleeting glance across the crowded auditorium of the Louvre and wham, Ella felt as though she had been struck by a lightning bolt. The man was standing some distance away, surrounded by a group of seriously chic Frenchwomen who were all vying for his attention. Her first impression in those few heartstopping seconds when their eyes met was that he was tall, dark and devastatingly handsome?but when she tore her gaze from his piercing blue stare she instinctively added the word dangerous to the list. Shaken by her reaction to a complete stranger, she stared down at her champagne glass, dismayed to find that her hands were trembling, and tried to concentrate on her conversation with a music journalist from the culture section of Paris Match. ?The audience were enraptured by you tonight, Mademoiselle Stafford. Your performance of Prokofiev?s second violin concerto was truly outstanding.? ?Thank you.? Ella smiled faintly at the journalist, but she was still supremely conscious of the intense scrutiny of the man standing on the other side of the room, and it took all her willpower to resist turning her head. It was almost a relief when Marcus appeared at her side. ?You know everyone?s saying a star has been born tonight?? he greeted her excitedly. ?You were bloody marvellous, Ella. I?ve just sneaked a preview of the review Stephen Hill is writing for The Times, and I quote??Stafford?s passion and technical bravura are out of this world. Her musical brilliance is dazzling, and her performance tonight cements her place as one of the world?s top violinists.? Not bad, eh?? Marcus could not hide his satisfaction. ?Come on?you need to circulate. There are at least half a dozen other journalists who want to interview you.? ?Actually, if you don?t mind, I?d really like to go back to the hotel.? Marcus?s smile slipped when he realised that Ella was serious. ?But this is your big night,? he protested. Ella bit her lip. ?I realise that the party is an ideal opportunity for more publicity, but I?m tired. The concert was draining.? Particularly when she?d spent the few hours before her solo performance ravaged by nerves, she thought ruefully. Music was her life, but the crippling stage fright she suffered every time she played in public was far from enjoyable, and sometimes she wondered if pursuing a career as a soloist was what she really wanted when it made her physically sick with fear. ?You attracted an A-list audience tonight, and you can?t just disappear,? Marcus argued. ?I?ve seen at least two ministers from the French government, not to mention a Russian oligarch.? He glanced over Ella?s shoulder and gave a low whistle. ?Don?t look now, but Vadim Aleksandrov is heading this way.? With a heavy sense of inevitability Ella turned her head a fraction, and felt her heart slam beneath her ribs when her eyes clashed once more with a startling blue gaze. The man was striding purposefully towards her, and she stared transfixed at the masculine beauty of his classically sculpted features and his jet-black hair swept back from his brow. ?Who is he?? she whispered to Marcus. ?A Russian billionaire?made his fortune in mobile phones and now owns a satellite television station, a British newspaper and a property empire that is said to include half of Chelsea?or Chelski, as some now call it,? Marcus added dryly. He broke off quickly, but Ella did not need the sight of Marcus?s most ingratiating smile to tell her that the man was close behind her. She could feel his presence. The spicy scent of his cologne assailed her senses, and the tiny hairs on the back of her neck stood on end when he spoke in a deep, melodious voice that was as rich and sensuous as the notes of a cello. ?Forgive my intrusion, but I would like to offer my congratulations to Miss Stafford on her performance tonight.? ?Mr Aleksandrov.? Marcus?s hand shot past Ella?s nose as he greeted the Russian. ?I?m Marcus Benning, Ella?s publicist. And this, of course?? he patted Ella?s shoulder in a faintly possessive manner ??is Lady Eleanor Stafford.? Ella blushed, and felt a surge of irritation with Marcus, who knew she disliked using her title but insisted that it was a good marketing tool. But as she turned to face the man, Marcus, the other guests, everything faded, and only Vadim Aleksandrov existed. Her eyes flew to his face and her blush deepened at the feral gleam in his gaze. A curious mix of fear and excitement shot through her, together with the ridiculous feeling that her life would never be the same again after this moment. She felt a strange reluctance to shake his hand, and shock ripped through her when he lifted her fingers to his mouth and pressed his lips to her knuckles. ?Eleanor.? His accented gravelly voice sent the same quiver of pleasure down her spine that she felt when she drew her bow across the strings of her violin. The feather-light brush of his mouth against her skin burned as if he had branded her, and with a little gasp she snatched her hand back, her heart beating frantically beneath her ribs. ?It?s an honour to meet you, Mr Aleksandrov,? Marcus said eagerly. ?Am I right that your company holds the monopoly on mobile phone sales in Russia?? ?We certainly took advantage of the gap in the communications market in its early days of trading, but the company has grown and diversified widely since then,?Vadim Aleksandrov murmured dismissively. He continued to stare intently at Ella, and Marcus finally took the hint. ?Where are all the damn waiters? I could do with a refill,? he muttered, waving his empty champagne glass before he wandered off towards the bar. For a split second Ella was tempted to race after him, but the enigmatic Russian?s brilliant blue eyes seemed to exert a magnetic hold over her, and she was so overwhelmed by his potent masculinity that she found herself rooted to the spot. ?You played superbly tonight.? ?Thank you.? She struggled to formulate a polite response, her whole being conscious of the electrical attraction that arced between them. She had never experienced anything like it before, never been so acutely aware of a man, and it was frankly terrifying. Vadim?s sardonic smile warned her that he recognised her awareness of him. ?I have never heard another non-Russian play Prokofiev with the passionate intensity for which he?and many of my countrymen?are renowned,? he murmured, in a crushedvelvet voice that seemed to enfold Ella in its intimate caress. Was that a roundabout way of telling her that he was passionate? The thought came unbidden into her head, and colour flared along her cheekbones as she acknowledged that he had no need to point out what was so blindingly obvious?even to her, with her severely limited sexual experience. Vadim Aleksandrov wore his virility like a badge, and she found the bold appreciation in his eyes as he trailed them over her body deeply unsettling. ?Are you enjoying the party?? Ella glanced around the packed reception room, where several hundred guests were all talking at once. The hubbub of voices hurt her ears. ?It?s very nice,? she murmured. The glint of amusement in Vadim?s eyes told her he knew she was lying. ?I understand you are giving another performance tomorrow evening, so I assume you are staying in Paris?? ?Yes. At the Intercontinental,? she added when his brows lifted quizzically. ?I?m at the George V, not far from you. I have a car waiting outside?can I offer you a lift back to your hotel? Maybe we could have a drink together?? ?Thank you, but I can?t rush away from the party,? Ella mumbled, aware that a couple of minutes ago she had planned to do just that. But Vadim Aleksandrov?s blatant sensuality disturbed her composure far too much for her to contemplate socialising with him. The hungry look in his eyes warned her that he would expect a drink in the bar to lead to an invitation up to her room?and she was very definitely not the sort of woman who indulged in one-night stands. But supposing she had been the sort of woman who invited a sexy stranger to spend the night with her? For a second her imagination ran riot, and a series of shocking images flashed into her mind, of Vadim undressing her and touching her body before he drew her down onto the crisp white sheets of her hotel bed and made love to her. What was she thinking? She could feel the heat radiating from her face and hastily dropped her eyes from Vadim?s speculative gaze, terrified that he might somehow have read her thoughts. ?The party is in your honour. Of course I understand your eagerness to remain,? he drawled in a faintly mocking tone. ?I?ll be in London next week. Perhaps we could have dinner one evening?? Ella swiftly dismissed the crazy impulse to accept his invitation. ?I?m afraid I?ll be busy.? ?Every evening?? His sensual smile caused her heart to skip a beat. ?He?s a lucky man.? She frowned. ?Who is?? ?The lover who commands your attention every night.? ?I don?t have a lover?? She stopped abruptly, realising that she had unwittingly revealed more about her personal life than she?d wished. The gleam of satisfaction in his eyes triggered alarm bells and she sent up a silent prayer of thanks when she caught sight of Marcus making signs for her to join him at the bar. ?If you?ll excuse me, I think my publicist has arranged for me to give an interview.? She hesitated, while innate good manners battled with the urge to put as much distance as possible between herself and the disturbing Russian, and then said hurriedly, ?Thank you for the invitation, but music takes up all my time and I?m not dating at the moment.? Vadim had moved imperceptibly closer, so that she could feel the heat emanating from his body. She stiffened, her eyes widening in shock when he reached out and stroked his finger lightly down her cheek. ?Then I shall just have to try and persuade you to change your mind,? he promised softly, before he turned and walked away, leaving her staring helplessly after him. London?a week later The Garden Room at Amesbury House buzzed with the murmur of voices as guests filed in and took their seats. The members of the Royal London Orchestra were already in their places, and there was the usual rustle of sheet music and a ripple of conversation from the musicians as they prepared for the concert. Ella lifted her violin out of its case and gave a tiny shiver of pleasure as she ran her fingers over the smooth, polished maple. The Stradivarius was exquisite, and incredibly valuable. Several collectors had offered her a fortune for the rare instrument?more than enough for her to be able to buy somewhere to live and still leave her with a sizeable nest egg should her career falter. But the violin had belonged to her mother; its sentimental value was incalculable and she would never part with it. She flicked through the music sheets on the stand in front of her, mentally running through the symphony, although she had little need of the pages of notes when she had put in four hours of practice that afternoon. Lost in her own world, she was only vaguely conscious of the voices around her until someone spoke her name. ?You?re miles away, aren?t you?? her fellow first violinist, Jenny March, said impatiently. ?I said, it looks as though one of us has an admirer?although sadly I don?t think it?s me,? she added, the note of genuine regret in her voice finally causing Ella to look up. ?Who do you mean?? she murmured, casting a curious glance around the room. The orchestra had performed at Amesbury House in London?s west end on several occasions. The Garden Room held an audience of two hundred, and provided a more intimate atmosphere than larger venues, but Ella preferred the anonymity of the Royal Albert Hall or the Festival Hall. Her eyes skimmed along the front row of guests and juddered to a halt on the figure sitting a few feet away from her. ?Oh! What?s he doing here?? she muttered, jerking her head away seconds too late to avoid the familiar glinting gaze of the man who had plagued her dreams every night for the past week. ?You know him?? Jenny?s eyes widened, and she could not disguise the hint of envy in her voice. ?What a dark horse you are, Ella. He?s seriously gorgeous. Who is he?? ?His name is Vadim Aleksandrov,? Ella said in a clipped tone, aware that Jenny would badger her for information all night. ?He?s a Russian billionaire. I?ve met him once?briefly?but I don?t know him.? ?Well, it?s obvious he?d like to get to know you,? Jenny said musingly, intrigued by the twin spots of colour staining Ella?s cheeks. Lady Eleanor Stafford was renowned for being cool and composed?so much so that she had earned the nickname of ice princess by a few of the other orchestra members?but at this moment Ella was looking distinctly flustered. ?I can?t understand why he?s here,? Ella muttered tensely. ?According to the gossip column in the magazine I read, he?s supposed to be at the film festival in Cannes with a famous Italian actress.? The photo of him and his voluptuous companion had lodged in Ella?s mind, and to her annoyance she had been unable to forget it, nor dismiss the shocking image in her head of a naked Vadim making love to his latest mistress. His private life did not interest her, she reminded herself sharply. Vadim Aleksandrov did not interest her, and she absolutely would not give in to the urge to turn her head and meet the piercing blue gaze she sensed was focused on her. But her prickling awareness of him did not lessen, and she had to force herself to concentrate as the audience settled and the RLO?s principal conductor, Gustav Germaine, lifted his baton. She adored Dvorak?s New World Symphony, and she was annoyed with herself for being distracted by Vadim?s presence. Taking a deep breath, she positioned her violin beneath her chin, and only then, as she drew her bow, did she relax and give all her attention to the music that flowed from wood and strings and seemed to surge up inside her, obliterating every other thought. An hour and a half later the last notes of the symphony faded and the sound of the audience?s tumultuous applause shattered Ella?s dream-like state, catapulting her back to reality. ?Good grief! Gustav?s almost smiling,? Jenny whispered as the members of the orchestra stood and bowed. ?That must mean he?s satisfied with our performance for once. Too right?it sounded pretty well perfect to me.? ?I wasn?t entirely happy with the way I played at the start of the fourth movement,? Ella muttered. ?But you?re even more of a perfectionist than Gustav,? Jenny said, unconcerned. ?From the audience?s response, they loved it?especially your Russian. He hasn?t taken his eyes off you the whole evening.? ?He?s not my Russian.? Ella did not want to be reminded of Vadim Aleksandrov, or learn that he had been watching her. She certainly did not want to glance over in his direction, but, like a puppet tugged by invisible strings, she turned her head a fraction, her eyes drawn inexorably to the dark-haired figure in the front row. Jenny was right?he was gorgeous, she admitted reluctantly. Music dominated her life, and usually she took little notice of men, but Vadim was impossible to ignore. He was tall?three or four inches over six feet tall by her estimation?with impressively broad shoulders sheathed in a superbly tailored dinner jacket. His jet-black hair and olivetoned complexion hinted at a Mediterranean ancestry, which made his vivid blue eyes beneath heavy black brows even more startling. His hard-boned face was exquisitely sculpted, with razor-sharp cheekbones, a patrician nose and a square chin that warned of a determined nature, while his beautifully shaped mouth was innately sensual. Oh, yes?seriously gorgeous, and her reaction to him was seriously unnerving, Ella acknowledged, feeling her heart slam beneath her ribs when those blue eyes trailed over her in a leisurely inspection and his lips curved into an amused smile that warned her he was well aware of the effect he had on her. ?So, where did you meet a sexy Russian billionaire?? Jenny muttered beneath the sound of the audience?s applause. ?And if you?re not interested in him I think it?s only fair you introduce him to me. He?s practically edible.? Jenny was irrepressible, and despite herself Ella?s lips twitched. ?I met him in Paris.? Jenny?s eyes widened. ?Paris?the city of romance. This gets better and better. Did you sleep with him?? ?No! Absolutely not.? Ella gave her friend a scandalised glance. ?Do you think I?d jump into bed with a man I?d only just met?? ?Not normally, no.? Ella?s coolness with members of the opposite sex was well known. ?But perhaps if he looked at you the way he?s looking at you now?? Jenny murmured shrewdly. Ella knew she was going to regret her next question. ?How is he looking at me?? she asked, striving to sound uninterested?and failing. ?Like he?s imagining undressing you, very slowly, and stroking his hands over every inch of your body as he exposes you to his hungry gaze.? ?For heaven?s sake, Jen! I don?t know what kind of books you?ve been reading lately.? Jenny watched Ella?s face flood with colour and grinned. ?You asked?I?m just telling you what I reckon is in your Russian?s mind.? ?He?s not my Russian.? Ella took a deep breath, and by sheer effort of will did not glance over at Vadim?but she could not dismiss the memory of the searing attraction she had felt the first time she had met him. A force beyond her control demanded that she turn her head, and as her eyes clashed with his brilliant gaze she felt a fierce tug of sexual awareness in the pit of her stomach. To her horror she felt an exquisite tingling sensation in her breasts as her nipples hardened, and mortification swept through her when Vadim deliberately lowered his eyes to the stiff peaks straining beneath her clingy silk jersey dress. Scarlet-faced, she jerked her head away from him and by sheer effort of will forced her lips into a smile as she faced the audience and bowed once more. Vadim felt a surge of satisfaction when he noted the betraying signs that Ella Stafford was not as immune to him as she would like him to believe. When they had met a week ago he had been blown away by her delicate beauty, and intrigued by her coolness. He wanted her badly?perhaps more than he had ever wanted a woman, he brooded as his eyes skimmed over her slender body, following the slight curve of her hips, the indent of her tiny waist and the delicate swell of her breasts beneath her black cocktail dress. Her hair was swept up into an elegant chignon, and for a moment he indulged in the pleasurable fantasy of removing the pins so that the pale blonde silk fell around her shoulders. To his shock, he felt himself harden. He hadn?t been this turned-on since he was a testosterone-fuelled youth, he acknowledged self-derisively, and he inhaled sharply, his nostrils flaring slightly as he imposed ruthless self-control over his hormones. The members of the orchestra were now filing out of the Garden Room. He was aware that Ella had determinedly not looked in his direction, but as she stepped forward she shot him a lightning glance, and colour flared along her cheekbones when he dipped his head in acknowledgement. Her reaction pleased him. He had known when they had met in Paris and he had seen the flare of startled awareness in her eyes that the attraction was mutual. Sexual alchemy was a potent force that held them both in its grip, but for some reason she had refused his invitation to dinner in a cool tone that had been at variance with her dilated pupils and the tremulous softness of her mouth. He dismissed the rumour circulating among certain individuals of her social group that she was frigid. No one could play an instrument with such fire and passion and have ice running through her veins. But her resistance was certainly a novelty. He had never before encountered a problem persuading any woman into his bed, Vadim mused cynically, aware that his billionaire status accounted for much of his attraction. But Ella was different from the models and socialites he usually dated. She was a member of the British aristocracy; beautiful, intelligent and a gifted musician. The sexual attraction between them was indisputable, and as Vadim turned his head to watch her slender figure walk out of the Garden Room he felt a surge of determination to make her his mistress. The evening at Amesbury House was a fundraising event organised by the patron of a children?s charity, and after the performance by the RLO a selection of cheeses and fine wines were served in the Egyptian Room. Ella smiled and chatted with the guests, but she was conscious of the familiar empty feeling inside her that always followed a performance. She had put her heart and soul into playing, but now she felt emotionally drained, and the hubbub of voices exacerbated her niggling headache. She had not seen Vadim since she had caught his amused stare on her way out of the Garden Room, and she assumed that he had left immediately after the performance. It was a relief to know she would not have to contend with his disturbing presence for the rest of the evening, she thought as she stepped through the door leading to the orangery?a glassroofed conservatory that ran the length of the house, and which was blessedly cool and quiet after the stuffy atmosphere of the Egyptian Room. It was beautiful here among the leafy citrus trees, but she longed to be back at Kingfisher House, beside the River Thames, her home for the past few years. She glanced at her watch, wondering how soon she could slip away from the party, and gave a startled gasp when a figure stepped out of the shadows. ?I thought you?d gone.? Shock lent a sharp edge to her voice, and Vadim Aleksandrov?s dark brows rose quizzically. ?I am flattered that you noticed my absence, Lady Eleanor.? His deep, accented voice was so innately sexy that she could not restrain the little shiver of reaction that ran through her. The only light in the orangery came from the silver moonbeams slanting through the glass, and she hoped he could not see the flush of colour that surged into her cheeks. ?Please don?t call me that,? she said tautly. ?I never use my title.? ?You would prefer for me to call you Ella, as your friends do?? In the pearly grey half-light Vadim?s smile revealed a set of perfect white teeth which reminded Ella of a predatory wolf. ?I am delighted that you regard me as a friend,? he drawled. ?It marks a major step forward in our relationship.? She froze, infuriated by his mocking tone, and aware of an underlying serious note in his voice that warned her to be on her guard. ?We don?t have a relationship to move forward, backward, or anywhere else,? she snapped. ?An unsatisfactory situation that can easily be remedied. I have two tickets for Madame Butterfly at the Royal Opera House for Thursday evening. Would you care to join me? We could have dinner after the performance.? ?I?m flying to Cologne to play at the Opernhaus on Wednesday,? Ella told him truthfully, assuring herself that the faint twinge of regret she felt was only because Puccini?s famous opera was one of her favourites. Vadim shrugged, drawing her attention to the formidable width of his shoulders, and she felt a curious tugging sensation low in her stomach. ?I?ll rearrange the tickets for another night.? His supreme self-confidence was that of a man who was used to getting his own way, and his arrogant smile made Ella?s hackles rise. Clearly he expected women to fall at his feet, and no doubt there were plenty who would leap at the chance to spend an evening with him?and then probably leap into his bed with the same eagerness?but she wasn?t one of them. She had tried to rebuff him politely, but obviously blunter tactics were needed. ?Which part of no don?t you understand?? she queried icily. Far from seeming offended, he widened his smile and strolled towards her, his piercing blue gaze trapping her as helplessly as a rabbit confronted by car headlights. She was of average height, and her heels gave her the advantage of another three inches, but he still towered over her, the muscular strength of his chest a formidable barrier which barred her escape from the orangery. He had invaded her thoughts day and night for the past week, and now, as she inhaled the exotic tang of his cologne, her senses swam and she could not deny her agonising awareness of him. ?This part,? Vadim said softly, sliding his hand beneath her chin and lowering his head before she had time to comprehend his intention?or react to it. CHAPTER TWO ?NO!? ELLA?S outraged gasp was muffled beneath the firm pressure of Vadim?s mouth on hers, and shock rendered her immobile. His lips were warm and beguiling as he kissed her with an expertise that caused her heart to slam against her ribs. He moved his hand from her chin to her nape, while his other hand settled on her hip and urged her closer. He did not exert force, and she could easily resist?should resist, her brain pointed out?but her body seemed to have a will of its own, and it craved even closer contact with the most mesmeric man she had ever met. His tongue traced the shape of her mouth, playing havoc with her equilibrium, but when he probed gently between her lips, demanding access, she stiffened and her pride belatedly stirred. She knew what kind of man he was. After meeting him in Paris she had been sufficiently intrigued to find out more about him, and had discovered that he had a reputation as a playboy whose wealth and undeniable charisma attracted women to his bed in droves. His relationships never lasted long before he moved on to his next conquest, and she would not be one of them, Ella vowed fiercely. She did not want a love affair, and she was certain that love was not on Vadim?s agenda. He wanted to have sex with her. She might be inexperienced, but she was not completely na?ve, and from the moment their eyes had met in Paris she had recognised the hungry desire in his gaze. He wanted her, but she was determined he would not have her. She?d never had a problem freezing out other men who had shown an interest in her, and the fact that she was finding it hard to remain cool with Vadim was all the more reason to stick to her resolve. She knew about men like him, she brooded bitterly. Her father had repeatedly broken her mother?s heart with his affairs. Even when Judith Stafford had lain dying the Earl had been cavorting with his mistress on the French Riviera, and had barely made it back to England in time for his wife?s funeral. But as Vadim continued his unhurried exploration of her lips she was aware of a curious melting sensation that seeped into her bones, undermining her determination to resist him, so that she could not prevent herself from sagging against him. His arm snaked around her waist, pulling her closer still, so that she could feel the solid hardness of his thigh muscles. In a frantic attempt to push him away she laid her hands flat against his chest, and was instantly entranced by the warmth of his body through his fine silk shirt. Now he increased the pressure of his mouth, forcing her lips apart, and with a bold flick of his tongue he delved into her moist warmth, taking the kiss to another level and demonstrating a degree of eroticism that was beyond anything Ella had ever imagined. She felt strangely light-headed as her blood drummed through her veins, every nerve-ending in her body acutely sensitive, so that the faint rasp of his cheek against her tender flesh sent a quiver of reaction the length of her spine. Just as music transported her to another world, Vadim?s kiss took her to a place she had never been before, where sensation ruled and all that mattered was that he should continue to move his mouth on hers in the slow, delicious tasting that caused a curious throbbing ache in the pit of her stomach. She had no idea how long the kiss lasted. It could have been minutes, hours. While she was in his arms she lost all sense of time, and when at last he lifted his head and withdrew his hand from her waist she swayed slightly, the dazed expression in her eyes gradually changing to one of appalled self-disgust. ?How dare you?? she whispered through numbed lips, the realisation that she had capitulated utterly to his mastery sending shame cascading through her, so that her face flooded with hot colour. He gave her an amused smile. ?How can you ask that after responding to me with such passion?? He ran his finger lightly over her flushed cheek, and then traced the swollen contours of her lips, his eyes darkening when he caught the faint catch of her breath. ?The word among some of your male friends is that you are frigid. But what do they know?? he murmured, his gravelly accent sounding deeper and more sensual than ever. ?They?re just young bucks who are piqued that you have not chosen one of them to be your boyfriend. But you should not have boys, Ella. You need a man who appreciates your sensual nature.? ?Are you suggesting I need you?? she choked, seizing anger as a weapon to fight the insidious warmth that his sexy voice and provocative statement evoked inside her. The sultry gleam in his eyes was too much to bear. ?Your ego is?monumental. And I don?t care what anyone thinks of me,? she added tightly. She was aware of the speculation among the brothers of some of her friends that her refusal to date them must mean she was either frigid or gay. The true explanation was that she simply wasn?t interested, but Vadim?s suggestion that she had been holding out for a highly sexed, overconfident man like him?a man like her father?was laughable. She had made it clear that she wanted nothing to do with him, and it was his problem if his ego couldn?t accept her refusal to have dinner with him. She had given out a mixed message tonight, though, she conceded grimly, shuddering at the memory of how she had responded to him with shameful enthusiasm. She should have pulled away from him the moment he had touched her, but instead she had melted in his arms. Mortification swept through her, together with a growing sense of panic as Vadim traced his finger down her throat and continued lower, coming to rest on the faint swell of her breasts, visible above the neckline of her dress. Her breath hitched in her throat, and she was terrified that he must be able to see her heart jerking unevenly beneath her ribs. Every instinct screamed at her to slap his hand away, but to her shame a little part of her longed for him to move his fingers the few necessary inches to curve around her breast. Her eyes flew to his face, and the feral gleam she saw beneath his heavy lids warned her he had read her mind. ?The game of cat and mouse has been amusing,? he said in his sinfully sexy accent, ?but now I grow bored with it. Perhaps you are shocked by the intensity of the sexual chemistry between us, Ella, but you cannot deny it exists. When we kissed, you felt it here.? He placed his hand directly over her heart, his fingers brushing against her breast. ?Just as I did. Passion pounds in your veins as it does in mine, and the only logical conclusion is for us to become lovers.? She could not possibly be tempted, Ella told herself frantically. She was incensed by Vadim?s arrogant assumption that she was his for the taking, that he could simply pluck her like a ripe peach, and yet she could not block out the little voice in her head which was urging her to agree, to succumb to the passion that, as he had rightly guessed, was pounding in her veins, making her feel hot and flustered. Common sense fought the wild recklessness that had gripped her and won. She would not be Vadim Aleksandrov?s plaything. She recalled a newspaper article about his recent split from glamour model Kelly Adams, in which Kelly had accused him of cruelly dumping her by text message. The accompanying photo had shown the stunning redhead sobbing heartbrokenly outside the hotel where Vadim had taken up residence since his arrival in the capital. ?Vadim Aleksandrov has a lump of granite instead of a heart,? Kelly had told the tabloids, and the image of the model?s tear-streaked face had reminded Ella of her mother?s anguished expression when Lionel Stafford had rejected her for one of his many mistresses. ?When you say lovers, what exactly do you have in mind?? she queried coolly. ?I know from press reports that you travel widely for your company, and I am frequently on tour with the RLO, so I?m not sure how we could maintain a meaningful relationship.? He frowned, clearly taken aback by her words. ?To be honest, I had not thought that far ahead,? he drawled. ?I am suggesting that we explore the sexual attraction that exists between us, but talk of a relationship is a little premature, don?t you think?? Vadim Aleksandrov and the late Earl Stafford had a lot in common, Ella brooded, not least their cavalier attitude towards women. ?I might have known that a man like you would only be interested in physical satisfaction,? she said bitterly, forcing herself to sound coldly dismissive to disguise her intense awareness of him. Vadim?s eyes narrowed at her haughty tone. ?A man like me?? he queried softly. The expression on Ella?s face was dismissive, scornful, and anger flared inside him. Did she think he was beneath her because he had started out in life with nothing, while she had been born into the wealthy, privileged lifestyle of the British upper class? He was used to women who played games, and he had cynically assumed that Ella had been cool with him because it amused her. Now he wondered if her refusal to date him was because she deemed him a lowly immigrant from the Eastern bloc who had made a fast buck, not worthy of her. He assured himself he did not give a damn about her opinion of him, but to his annoyance his pride stung. ?What kind of a man do you think I am?? he demanded harshly. As Ella stared at his hard-boned face her mind flew back across the years and she was back at Stafford Hall, huddled at the top of the stairs, peering through the banisters to the hall below, where her mother was sobbing as she pleaded with a cold, arrogantly handsome man. ?You?re going to her again, aren?t you? Did you think I was unaware of your latest mistress when the whole of London knows you spend your nights with your tart instead of with me? For pity?s sake, Lionel?? Judith Stafford lifted her hands beseechingly towards her husband, but there was no pity in the Earl?s eyes, just cold indifference which turned to anger when his wife clutched the lapels of his jacket. ?Why on earth would I want to spend any more time than I have to with you? You?re a neurotic, pathetic mess.? Lip curling with distaste, Lionel Stafford pushed the weeping woman away from him with such force that she stumbled and fell to her knees. ?Pull yourself together, Judith, and be thankful I go elsewhere for my pleasures when you consistently deny me my rights in the marriage bed.? ?I?m not well, Lionel. You know my heart condition means I have to be careful?? ?Well, I?m bored with your illness.?The Earl flung open the door and gave one last withering glance at his wife, still kneeling on the cold marble floor. ?Don?t wait up,? he said mockingly. ?I don?t know when I?ll be back.? Ella remembered the anger that had surged through her as her father had slammed the door behind him, and the pity and the feeling of utter helplessness as she?d watched her mother slowly drag herself to her feet and make her way wearily to the stairs. At twelve years old she had been unable to voice her hatred of her father, and less than a year later, after her mother had died of heart failure, she had been packed off to boarding school and left in the charge of a nanny during the holidays, while the Earl disappeared abroad. Her resentment had continued to fester inside her. Lionel Stafford had died before Ella had had the opportunity to tell him how much she hated him, but now, as she stared at Vadim?s arrogant face, her bitterness came tumbling out. ?I think you are the kind of man who selfishly takes what you want and gives nothing in return. You have a reputation as a playboy, but you have no respect for women.? She lifted her head and glared at him, determined not to be fazed by the mocking gaze that so infuriated her. But there was no amusement in those piercing blue eyes, just a feral gleam that made her feel hot and shivery at the same time, and she had the uncomfortable feeling that he could see inside her head. Anger surged up inside her, making her tremble with its intensity. How dared he make the casual suggestion that they should become lovers? And how dared he kiss her with such shocking hunger that he had forced her to respond to him against her will? She could not drag her gaze from his mouth, couldn?t forget the sensual pleasure of his lips sliding over hers, but no way did she want him to kiss her again?of course she didn?t, she assured herself fiercely. ?I?d rather die than have you touch me again.? As soon as the words were out she knew she?d sounded childish and overdramatic, and her blush deepened when he gave her an amused glance. ?If I thought you really meant it I would walk away and never trouble you again,? he said softly. ?But we both know it isn?t true. You desire me as much as I want you, and have done since the moment we met in Paris. The attraction between us was instant, like wildfire, but you don?t have the guts to be honest about it.? Incensed, she stared at him, shaking with rage, and yet deep down she was aware of a need to goad him, to make him do?what? ?How can you possibly think you know my mind better than I do?? she gritted. ?I know you want me to kiss you again.? His voice was suddenly rough, the amusement in his eyes replaced by scorching heat. ?Let?s try a little experiment, shall we?? His arm shot out and he jerked her against him, ignoring her struggles to escape with insulting ease as he lowered his mouth to hers. There was no gentleness this time, just raw, primitive passion as he took without mercy, forcing her lips apart with a bold flick of his tongue before he thrust deep into her moist warmth and explored her with ruthless efficiency. Fighting him was impossible when his arms were clamped like a vice around her body. But she did not have to respond to him, her brain pointed out. She could simply remain passive until he?d finished with her. But, to her shame, her willpower was non-existent, and the delicious pressure of his mouth proved an irresistible temptation. It was ridiculous that at twenty-four she did not know how to kiss a man properly, Ella mused. But her music consumed her so utterly that she had never felt more than mild curiosity about the opposite sex, and on the rare occasions she had agreed to go on a date she had found the obligatory fumbling kiss in the car, with the gear lever jammed into her ribs, totally uninspiring. Being kissed by Vadim was a completely different experience. He was a master in the art of seduction, while she was dangerously out of her depth. The erotic sweep of his tongue destroyed her thought processes, and she gave up trying to deny him when it meant denying herself, initiating a tentative exploration of her own that elicited a low groan from him as he felt her complete capitulation. She was flushed and breathless when he finally released her. ?You see?you survived,? he taunted softly. Ella wished she could make some cutting retort, but her brain seemed to have stopped functioning. Her lips felt swollen when she traced them with her tongue, and she doubted she could have uttered a word. Vadim?s eyes darkened as he watched the darting foray of her pink tongue-tip, and he muttered something she assumed was Russian as he made to pull her back into his arms. But suddenly, shockingly, the orangery was flooded with a brilliant glare as someone pushed open the door and flicked the light switch. ?Oh?sorry.? Jenny did not bother to disguise her curiosity as she watched Ella flush scarlet and spring away from the gorgeous Russian hunk who had been eyeing her up all night. ?Ella, there?s been a mix-up with the taxis. They?ve only sent one car, and Claire?s cello will take up half the back seat. The driver says he?ll come back for you after he?s driven us home, as you live in the opposite direction. Do you mind waiting?? ?No, that?s fine.?Ella forced a smile, despite the sudden feeling that her head was about to explode. The migraine she had sensed brewing earlier had kicked in with a vengeance, the pain escalating as quickly as it always did with her, so that she could barely concentrate on anything else. She refused to make a fuss about the travel arrangements, even though the prospect of waiting around for her lift home seemed unbearable when a dozen hammers were beating against her skull. She supposed she could ring another cab company, but moving her head even slightly was agony, and she was conscious of the unpleasant queasy sensation in her stomach that usually preceded a bout of sickness. ?Are you okay?? Jenny?s voice sounded like a pneumatic drill to Ella?s ultra-sensitive ears. ?You look a bit green.? Somehow Ella managed another faint smile. ?A headache. It?s nothing. You?d better go, or the taxi will leave without you.? Jenny hesitated, frowning at Ella?s sudden pallor. ?Are you sure?? ?I?ll take Ella home.? Vadim?s deep voice was firm and decisive, and at any other time she would have railed against his authority, but right now getting home as fast as possible was imperative, so she nodded her head very slightly, trying not to wince as stars flashed in front of her eyes. ?Thank you.? She sensed his surprise at her sudden meekness, but the pain was worse, blinding her, so that she stumbled after him, back through the Egyptian Room and out to the foyer, where she collected her violin from the security desk and then followed Vadim out onto the street. She?d hoped that a few gulps of fresh air would lessen the nauseous feeling, but if anything she felt worse, and after easing carefully into his low-slung sports car, and muttering instructions on how to reach her house, she closed her eyes and prayed she would not throw up over his leather upholstery. If there was one thing Vadim couldn?t stand it was a woman who sulked. He did not even know why he was bothering with Ella, he thought grimly, after his attempts at conversation were met with a barely monosyllabic response. He took his eye off the road for a second and threw her an impatient glance, his mouth tightening when he saw that she had turned her head away from him and was staring fixedly out of the window. He knew of half a dozen extremely attractive women he could phone who would be happy to provide a few hours of pleasant company and uncomplicated sex. So why was he hung up on this pale, underweight girl, who changed from hot to cold quicker than a mixer-tap, and was now subjecting him to the big freeze because he had proved that she was sexually attracted to him? Her coolness intrigued him, he admitted, particularly now he had sampled the heated passion she kept hidden behind her ice-maiden fa?ade. But his attempts to get Ella to have dinner with him, let alone persuade her into his bed, had so far come to nothing, and he was beginning to wonder if she was worth the effort. Maybe he should drop her home and put her out of his mind? His hectic work schedule meant that he hadn?t had a lover for weeks. Celibacy did not agree with him, he acknowledged self-derisively. But Ella Stafford was too much like hard work. ?Stop the car,? she cried suddenly. He frowned. ?According to the sat-nav we?re still a mile from your address.? ?Just stop the car now. Please.? The urgency in her voice puzzled him. Did she want him to leave her at the side of the road because she was afraid that if he drove her all the way home he might demand an invitation into her house? He swore violently in his native tongue and pulled up in a lay-by, his frown deepening when she immediately shot out of the car and raced towards the bushes a few feet back from the road. ?Ella??? ?Don?t follow me,? she yelled. He swore again. God damn it, what did she think he was going to do to her? He swung back to the car and then paused at the unmistakable sound of retching coming from the bushes. A few minutes later she reappeared, whey-faced, her eyes like great hollows in her pinched face. She looked like death, and his impatience faded as some indefinable emotion tugged in his chest. ?What the hell is the matter with you?? ?Migraine.? Ella forced the word past her chattering teeth, took one look at Vadim?s horrified expression and wanted to die of embarrassment. There was no hint of desire in his eyes now, she noted grimly, but that was hardly surprising when he had just heard her lose the contents of her stomach. ?I occasionally get them after a performance. Playing is incredibly draining, and it seems that a surfeit of emotions affects me physically.? She leaned weakly against the car, wondering if he would allow her to get back in, or whether he expected her to walk the remaining distance to her house for fear that she would be sick again. ?You?re partly to blame,? she muttered, not daring to look at him and see the disgust he must surely feel. ?You unsettle me.? He gave a rough laugh, but when he spoke the anger had gone from his voice. ?Honesty at last! If it?s any consolation, you unsettle me too. But I?m not sure I like the idea that I make you physically ill.? ?You don?t?I mean, it wasn?t you?? Why on earth had she admitted that he unsettled her? Ella asked herself crossly. She was naturally reserved?a trait that was frequently mistaken for aloofness?and she hated the nickname she?d earned of Ice Princess, but right now she would give anything to appear cool and collected. ?I find Dvorak?s New World Symphony very emotional to play,? she muttered, colour flaring on her white face. ?I?m relieved to know that my kissing you did not make you sick.? There was amusement in Vadim?s voice now and Ella glared at him, or tried to, but the pain across her temples was excruciating and she closed her eyes, wishing she were back home at Kingfisher House rather than standing by the side of the road with a man who infuriated her and fascinated her in equal measures. ?Do you have medication for your headache?? She forced her eyes open to find him standing close beside her, and for some inexplicable reason she wanted to rest her pounding head against the broad strength of his chest. ?My prescription painkillers are at home. I usually carry some with me, but I forgot them tonight,? she muttered ruefully. ?Then I?d better get you home quickly.? Vadim helped her into the car and strode round to the driver?s side, coiling his long frame behind the wheel. ?Here, let me do that.? He leaned across her and adjusted her seat belt, and despite the throbbing pain in her head Ella was acutely conscious of his closeness, her senses flaring as she breathed in the subtle scent of his cologne. In the glow from the street-lamp his swarthy olive skin gleamed like silk, but the brilliance of his blue eyes was shielded by thick black lashes. His mouth was inches from hers, and she recalled the firm pressure of his lips easing hers apart, demanding a response she had been helpless to deny. She suddenly felt hot, when seconds ago she had been freezing cold, but she could not blame her erratic temperature swing on her migraine, she admitted dismally. For some reason this man affected her in a way no man had ever done?made her feel things she had confidently assumed would never trouble her. When Vadim had told her that some of her male friends thought she was frigid, she hadn?t been surprised. It had occurred to her that the reason for her complete lack of interest in the opposite sex might not only be due to the hatred she had felt for her father, and that she must simply have a low sex-drive. But the erotic dreams that had plagued her since this Russian had first kissed her hand in Paris had turned that notion on its head. He had awoken her sensuality?but far from wanting to explore the feelings he aroused in her?her instinct was to run and keep on running. Vadim stared at her, and said in a half-amused, half-impa-tient voice, ?For pity?s sake, don?t look at me like that now, when you know damn well there?s nothing I can do about it.? ?Like what?? she mumbled, dazed with pain and overwhelmed by his potent masculinity. ?Like you want me to kiss you again and keep on kissing you, until the slide of mouth on mouth is no longer enough for either of us and only the feel of hands caressing naked skin will satisfy the ache that consumes us both,? he said, in a low tone that simmered with sexual promise. Face burning at the images he evoked, Ella jerked upright?and drew a sharp breath when a burning poker pierced her skull. ?I didn?t?I don?t?? ?Liar.? She was so pale she looked as though she might pass out. Vadim controlled his frustration and fired the ignition, wondering how he could ever have bought into the image Ella projected of cool, reserved, independent woman. Instead she was a seething mass of emotions, intense, hot-blooded and surprisingly vulnerable, and she intrigued him more than any other woman had ever done. Walking away from her was not an option right now, he conceded grimly. He wanted her, and he knew damn well that she wanted him; he simply had to convince her of that fact. But now was not the time, he acknowledged when he shot another glance at her wan face. She looked achingly fragile, and he was surprised by the level of his concern. He drove along the main road until the satellite navigation system instructed him to take a right turn into a side street which he suddenly realised was familiar, and his frown deepened when he swung onto the driveway of a large, beautiful mansion house. ?This is your house?? he queried harshly. ?I wish,? Ella muttered, too overwhelmed by the pain in her head to wonder why Vadim sounded puzzled. ?It belongs to my uncle. He owns an estate agency business, and when Kingfisher House came onto the market a few years ago he snapped it up as an investment. He rents the main part of the house out to tenants, and I live in the adjoining staff quarters and act as caretaker when the house is empty?as it has been for the past couple of months.? She climbed out of the car and glanced wistfully at the gracious old house that she had fallen in love with the minute she?d first seen it. ?Hopefully when Uncle Rex finds new tenants they?ll allow me to continue living here.? The American businessman who had rented Kingfisher House the previous year had travelled extensively with his job, and had been happy for Ella to stay and keep an eye on the place, but new people might want to use the staff quarters, which would mean she would have to move out. The possibility of having to find somewhere else to live had been worrying her for weeks, but right now all she could think of was swallowing a couple of painkillers and crawling into bed, and so she started to walk carefully towards the front door on legs that felt decidedly wobbly. Strong arms suddenly closed around her, and she gave a startled cry when Vadim swung her into his arms. ?Stop fighting and let me help you,? he said roughly. ?You?re about to collapse.? Her eyes were shadowed with pain, and the shimmer of tears evoked another tug of compassion that surprised him when usually he had little patience for weakness. His childhood had been tough, and devoid of kindness, and two years doing his national service in the Russian army had been brutally harsh. He had learned early in life that survival was dependent on physical and mental strength, and he acknowledged the truth in the accusation by some of his ex-lovers that he was hard and unemotional. He?d spent so long suppressing his feelings that it came as a shock to realise he had the capacity to feel pity; Vadim brooded as he strode up to the house. But for some reason the woman in his arms elicited an emotion in him that might almost be described as tenderness. His mouth tightened. The idea that he was drawn to Ella by anything more than sexual attraction was disturbing, and he swiftly rejected it. All he asked from the women who briefly shared his life was physical satisfaction?the slaking of mutual lust until desire faded and he grew bored and moved on to someone new. Ella was no different, he told himself grimly. He wanted her, and soon he would have her. But the beginning would spell the end, as it always did. CHAPTER THREE ?YOU can put me down now,? Ella insisted, the moment Vadim had pushed open the front door and carried her across the entrance hall towards the sweeping staircase which led to the upper floors. ?My part of the house is on the ground floor, through that door. I?ll manage fine, thank you,? she added tersely, when he did not set her down as she had hoped, but turned towards the door she had indicated. He shouldered the door and strode into her sitting room, glancing around the spacious room which was dominated by an enormous grand piano. The room was at the back of the house, and through the French windows he could make out a sweeping lawn and beyond it the wide expanse of the River Thames, gleaming dully in the moonlight. ?You must have a wonderful view of the river.? ?Oh, yes, and of Hampton Court on the opposite bank. I love it here,? Ella confessed. ?I can?t bear the thought that I may have to move out. It was very good of Uncle Rex to persuade his previous tenant to allow me stay here, but I might not be so lucky next time. The trouble is, there aren?t many flats that I can afford with rooms big enough for the piano, or where I can practise my music for hours on end without disturbing the neighbours.? ?Why don?t you sell the piano? My knowledge of musical instruments is limited, but I know Steinways are worth a fortune.? ?I?ll never sell it,? Ella said fiercely. ?It was my mother?s. She loved it, and it was one of the few possessions of hers I fought to keep when I had to sell Stafford Hall. That was the family pile,? she explained, when Vadim gave her a querying look. ?Stafford Hall was a gift to one of my ancestors from Henry VIII, and the house, along with a sizeable fortune, was passed down through the family for generations?until it reached my father.? The undisguised bitterness in her voice stirred Vadim?s curiosity. ?What happened? And where are your parents now?? ?They?re both dead. My mother died when I was thirteen,? she revealed in a low tone, which hardened as she added, ?My father died five years ago?after he?d drunk and gambled away all the money. When it ran out he went though the house and sold off anything of value, but fortunately my mother had bequeathed her violin and piano to me in her will, and he wasn?t able to touch them. After he died I had to sell the Hall to clear the mountain of debts he?d left, and that?s when Uncle Rex allowed me to move in here.? The Stafford fortune had not only been wasted on the late Earl?s love of whisky and the roulette wheel but also on his love of women, Ella thought bitterly. Her father had been a notorious playboy, and from early childhood she had vowed never to be attracted to the type of man who treated women as a form of entertainment. So why, she asked herself angrily, had she allowed Vadim Aleksandrov?a man who changed his mistresses more often than most men changed their socks?to kiss her tonight? And, even worse, why had she responded to him?perhaps given him the idea that she was willing to hop into bed with him? The searing pain of her migraine was no excuse for her to have weakly let him carry her into the house. She was acutely conscious of the feel of his arms around her waist and beneath her knees. Held close against his chest, she could hear the steady beat of his heart beneath her ear. It made her feel safe somehow, secure, but that was an illusion, of course, because the last thing she would be with Vadim was safe. He was a man like her father, a handsome heartbreaker, and from the moment she had met him her instincts had warned her to steer clear of him. ?Put me down, please.? She moved restlessly in his arms, but he ignored her struggles and strode across the sitting room to the door which stood ajar to reveal her bedroom. ?Where are your painkillers?? ?In the bedside drawer.? He lowered her slowly onto the bed, but the movement caused her to draw a sharp breath as the pain in her head became unendurable. She moaned when he flicked on the lamp, and as soon as he?d found her medication he doused the light so that the only illumination in the room was from the moonlight glimmering through the open curtains. ?I?ll get you some water.? She heard him walk into the en suite bathroom, and he returned seconds later to hand her a glass of water. The safety lid on the painkillers was beyond her, and she was grateful when he opened it and tipped two tablets into her palm. They were strong, and she knew that in ten minutes, fifteen at most, she would sink into oblivion and escape from the pain that was making her feel so sick. ?Can you see yourself out?? she whispered as she sank back against the pillows. ?I will, once you?re in bed.? Vadim?s velvet-soft voice was strangely soothing, and she closed her eyes, only to open them again with a jolt when she felt his hand on her ankle. ?What are you doing?? ?Taking your shoes off.? He sounded faintly amused. ?You can?t get into bed wearing stiletto heels.? How could the feel of his hands lightly brushing the soles of her feet as he removed her shoes be so intensely erotic? Ella wondered fretfully. Even in the throes of an agonising migraine she was desperately aware of him, and she could only pray he had not noticed the tremor that ran through her. ?Now your dress.? ?No way are you going to take my dress off.? She glared at him through pain-glazed eyes, daring him to touch her, but he ignored her and rolled her gently onto her side, so that he could slide her zip down her spine. ?You?re telling me you can undress yourself?? He took her fulminating silence as a no, and, with a deftness she assumed he?d gained from regularly removing women?s clothes, drew her dress over her shoulders and down to her waist. Arguing with him was impossible when her head was about to explode. More than anything she wanted to go to sleep and blot out the pain, and when he told her to lift her hips she obeyed, and allowed him to slide her dress down her legs. She didn?t even care that he could see her functional black bra and knickers. Shivering with pain, she was past caring about anything, but when he drew the covers over her and stood up, good manners prompted her to speak. ?Thank you for bringing me home.? Ella looked achingly fragile, and the fact that she hadn?t fought him like a wildcat when he had removed her dress was an indication of the severity of her headache, Vadim mused wryly. ?Do your migraines usually last long?? ?I should be fine in the morning, hopefully,? Ella mumbled sleepily, her eyelids already feeling heavy as the painkillers began to work. ?Good. As for thanking me, you can do that when you have dinner with me next week.? It took a few seconds for his words to sink in, and when she forced her eyes open he was already on his way out of the door. ?I told you, I?m going to Germany next week,? she called after him. He glanced over his shoulder, and his sensual smile made her heart lurch. ?But you?re back at the weekend. I checked with one of the other members of the orchestra. I?ll be in touch.? Ella didn?t know whether to take that as a threat or a promise, but he had strolled out of her room and closed the door quietly behind him while she was still trying to think of another excuse. Irritating man, she thought angrily as she settled back on her pillow. But as she teetered on the edge of sleep she reminded herself that his ability to disturb her equilibrium also made him a dangerous man, and she was utterly determined not to have dinner with him. Ella had completely recovered from her debilitating migraine by the time she flew to Cologne with the RLO. She had visited the city many times before, and instead of joining Jenny on a sightseeing trip she made up for her lost practice time by rehearsing for several hours before the concert. The programme of concertos by Bach and Beethoven was received with much acclaim; the orchestra received excellent reviews and arrived back at Gatwick on Saturday morning. ?I wouldn?t mind being greeted with a bouquet of flowers,? Jenny commented enviously as they walked through the arrivals gate and spotted a courier clutching a huge arrangement of red roses. Ella watched the courier talking to one of the orchestra members up ahead, and she gave Jenny a puzzled glance when he walked purposefully in their direction. ?Eleanor Stafford? These are for you.? Struggling to hold her violin and suitcase, as well as the bouquet that had been thrust into her arms, Ella was nonplussed. ?There must be a mistake?? ?Open the card. Here?? Jenny rescued the violin, and with fumbling fingers Ella ripped open the envelope and read the note inside. Welcome home, Ella. Dinner tonight, 7 p.m. I?ll pick you up from Kingfisher House. It was signed ?Vadim?, and the sight of the bold black scrawl filled Ella with a mixture of annoyance and jittery excitement that she swiftly quashed. ?He hasn?t even left a phone number so that I can cancel,? she noted irritably. Jenny gave her a look that told Ella she was seriously questioning her sanity. ?Why would you want to? He?s incredibly good-looking, mega-rich and as sexy as sin,? she listed. ?And he?s sent you two dozen red roses. What more do you want? This guy is clearly keen.? ?I don?t want anything from him,? Ella snapped. ?And all he wants is to take me to bed.? ?So, what?s wrong with that?? Jenny stopped dead on the way out of the airport terminal and stared at Ella. ?You?ve always said?right back from when we were pig-tailed first-years at boarding school?that you never wanted to get married.? ?I don?t.? Ella frowned, wondering where the conversation was leading. ?But you?re saying you don?t want an affair either? What are you going to do?live like a nun for the rest of your life?? ?Yes?no?I don?t know,? Ella muttered. They had been friends for over a decade, and Jenny knew her better than anyone, but she couldn?t explain her violent reaction to Vadim when she didn?t understand it herself. ?Are you advocating that I should become Vadim Aleksandrov?s plaything??she demanded tersely. ?I can think of worse fates,? Jenny said cheerfully. ?Seriously, Ella?? Her smile faded. ?I know you didn?t get on with your dad, and that he treated your mum badly, but you can?t cut yourself off from the world, from men and relationships, because your parents? marriage didn?t work out.? ?I haven?t.? Ella defended herself tersely, but she knew deep down that she was lying. Jenny didn?t understand. How could she, when her parents had been married for thirty years and her father was a gentle, kindly man who patently adored his wife and four children. Ella had spent many happy school holidays with Jenny and her family, and would have gladly swapped the lonely grandeur of Stafford Hall for the Marches? cramped bungalow in Milton Keynes, which was full of love and laughter. Jenny had no idea what it had been like to witness her father destroy her mother with his mental and sometimes physical cruelty, but the emotional scars ran deep in Ella?s mind, and she had promised herself she would never put herself in a position where a man had any kind of hold over her. ?When was the last time you went on a date?? Jenny demanded. Ella shrugged. ?A couple of months ago, actually. I had dinner with the flautist Michail Danowski when the Polish orchestra visited.? Jenny gave her a look of mingled pity and exasperation. ?He?s gay, so he doesn?t count.? Ella was saved from answering when a taxi drew up, and they spent the next few minutes stowing violins and luggage in the boot. ?You can?t put those in here; they?ll get crushed,? Jenny said when Ella crammed Vadim?s flowers on top of her case. The roses were beautiful, she conceded when the taxi finally pulled away, and she stared at the bouquet on her lap. The velvety petals were a rich ruby-red, filling the car with their sensual perfume. Red roses were for lovers; the thought stole into her mind together with Jenny?s taunt about spending the rest of her life as a nun. Of course she wasn?t going to do that, she assured herself. It was just that music and her career, both with the RLO and as a soloist, took up all her time, and she couldn?t fit in a relationship right now. Not that Vadim was offering a relationship?he had admitted as much when he had kissed her at Amesbury House. All he wanted was an affair, and she refused to be another notch on his overcrowded bedpost. The sight of Kingfisher House and the weeping cherry trees that lined the drive, bathed in spring sunshine, lifted Ella?s spirits, and she couldn?t wait to throw open the French doors at the back of the house and walk down the lawn to the private jetty beside the majestic River Thames. But first there was the usual pile of mail to deal with, and a message on the answermachine drained all the pleasure from her homecoming. ?Ella, Uncle Rex here. I?ve found a new tenant for Kingfisher House. He?s interested in buying the place, but he wants to rent it for six months to see whether it?s suitable for him. There?s no rush for you to move out. He?s happy for you to stay on in the caretaker flat until he decides what he?s going to do. I?ll give you another call to arrange a time when you can meet him?hopefully some time this weekend.? Ella?s heart sank. She?d known that her uncle had been thinking of selling Kingfisher House, now that the high-end property market was improving after the downturn of the previous couple of years, but she?d put it out of her mind. Now it seemed likely that she would have to move within the next few months, and the problem of finding somewhere to live with rooms big enough to fit a concert grand piano would not make flat-hunting easy. Life suddenly seemed full of uncertainty, and the prospect of seeing Vadim again added to her tension. She spent the rest of the day in a state of nervous apprehension, which grew worse as seven o?clock drew nearer. She was sure he had deliberately not included his phone number on his dinner invitation to prevent her from cancelling, but if he thought she was the type of woman who would meekly allow herself to be dominated by him, he?d better think again. No man was ever going to boss her around, she resolved fiercely, ignoring the twinge of her conscience that pointed out that it had been good of him to drive her home when she?d been in agony with a migraine. Colour flared on her cheeks when she recalled how he had removed her dress. But, far from taking advantage of her in her vulnerable state, Vadim had behaved like a gentleman and tucked her into bed. Damn it, why couldn?t he get the message that she wanted nothing to do with him? she brooded irritably as she arranged the mass of red roses in a vase. She didn?t want him to send her flowers, but they were so beautiful that she couldn?t bring herself to throw them in the bin. Most women would be delighted to receive roses from a gorgeous billionaire, she acknowledged ruefully, thinking of her conversation with Jenny. But she was not most women, and although she had denied it to Jenny, she knew that the fear and hatred she?d felt for her father continued to influence the way she felt about all men. As usual when she felt tense, music was her salvation. She was building a successful career as a violinist, but she still played the piano purely for pleasure, and she was soon lost in another world as she moved her fingers over the smooth ivory keys, finding a release for her pent-up emotions in her favourite pieces by Chopin and Tchaikovsky. Vadim was met by the haunting melody of Beethoven?s Moonlight Sonata as he climbed out of his car and strode up the drive of Kingfisher House. He paused to listen, and felt the hairs on the back of his neck stand on end. Ella possessed a truly remarkable gift, and her brilliance as a musician fascinated him as much as her delicate beauty stirred his desire. Loath to disturb her by knocking on the front door, he walked around to the back of the house, where the French windows were thrown wide open and the lilting notes drifted on the air. She was totally absorbed, and did not look up as he lowered himself onto one of the patio chairs, leaned back and closed his eyes, shutting out everything but the music. He had never played an instrument in his life; luxuries such as music lessons had not been affordable during his childhood, growing up in what had at that time been the USSR. His father?s job as a factory worker had barely brought in enough money to pay the rent on the tiny apartment they had shared with Vadim?s grandmother, and life had been dominated by the struggle to buy enough to eat during the frequent food shortages. He knew little about the great composers, or of musical techniques, but for some reason music had the power to soothe his restless soul, to reach deep inside him and force a chink in the granite wall around his heart. As the last lingering notes of the melody faded Ella flexed her fingers, suddenly aware that the room was no longer flooded with afternoon sunlight, but shadowed with the onset of dusk. ?You play like an angel.? The familiar, toe-curlingly sexy accent caused her to jerk her head towards the French windows, and her heart thudded beneath her ribs as she jumped to her feet and stared at Vadim. ?How long have you been there?? Shock at his appearance sharpened her voice. Playing the piano was an intensely personal experience, a special link with her mother, and she had poured her soul into the music. She had been unaware that she had an audience, and she felt as though she had unwittingly exposed her private emotions to Vadim. He shrugged and stepped into the room. ?Twenty minutes or so.? His brilliant blue gaze skimmed over her tee shirt and faded jeans, and moved up to her hair, falling in a curtain of pale gold silk around her shoulders. This was the Ella Stafford the world did not see. Over the past few years she had been expertly marketed as a violin virtuoso; much had been made of her aristocratic pedigree, and she was portrayed on the covers of her numerous CD albums as a sophisticated artiste. The woman staring at him across the grand piano looked younger than her public image, and her intense awareness of him that flared, undisguised, in her stormy grey eyes made her seem painfully vulnerable. A kinder man would not take his pursuit of her any further, Vadim knew. Beneath her ice-cool image he sensed an emotional fragility that warned him not to get involved. He liked his affairs to be uncomplicated, and he ensured that the women he bedded always knew the score: mutually satisfying sex with no strings attached. Ella seemed curiously innocent, although in reality that was unlikely for a modern and successful woman in her mid-twenties, he reminded himself. 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